A Life Cycle Complete, Saying Goodbye

In the domestication of animals and the taking of themspans. From another perspective, they have begun
into our lives, our homes, and our hearts, we take ondying from diseases related to living in our world. There
the responsibility of meeting their daily needs. Whenare pros and cons in both directions of their coming to
they are in the dying process that responsibility is not abe our companions and living in our world. We created
burden but a gift that comes in many forms, when thea life removed from nature and its cycles.
heart remains open feeling love as well as the pain.In our daily life many of us have become removed
In the domestication of animals and the taking of themfrom the balance and cycle of life. We work inside
into our lives, our homes, and our hearts, we take onbuildings, only being outside on weekends. We have
the responsibility of meeting their daily needs. Whenaccess to all types of fruits and vegetables 12 months
we ask them to be part of our lives, they try their besta year. We fear death, pain, and loss. We are no
to understand us and integrate. In this process, animalslonger tied to the rhythm of nature and the earth. The
gave away complete reliance on themselves, andcycle of prey/predator is foreign. We are not part of
gained restrictions. They no longer roam or forage forthe food chain. Our role in life and death is not
food, Some animals spending their lives primarily in asomething we consciously are aware of. We have
stall, kennel, or cage. What we ask of our companions,come to believe we are superior in the life cycle
often, but not always, is done for our convenience.process and not part of it. As did our animals, so we
They are the ones who have to fit into our world, totoo gave away and gained in urbanization. We are all
what we think is necessary. Animal companions whoa part of the life cycle of the earth, not superior to it,
live in loving, caring homes, and whose essence isnot separate from it, but a part of it.
honored, still give something up. Chris, an AppaloosaOur animals view leaving their bodies differently than
mare, became my companion in the fall of 1987. Shemany humans do. Domesticated animals retain a
gained and lost in coming to my home. We found acloser acceptance of death than their human
balance and navigated the road of our relationship. Wecompanions do. They accept, living, and dying in the
grew to become each others companion. On thebalance of nature, and knowing they are part of the
morning of December 18, 2002 I said goodbye to my"cycle of life." With understanding as well as release,
mare Chris. I awoke to hearing her thrashing. My heartand acceptance on the part of the care giver, the
froze. Chris was 28 with Cushing's disease. The timeanimal leaves the earth with and from an open heart.
we had spent together was not long enough. I wantedWhen we know in our hearts it is time to say goodbye
her with me forever. I tried hard to think of her needs.to our dearest friend, it is human nature to try and
In the few hours we had left I realized I had to set mychange it, grieve it, and even deny it. I selfishly wanted
pain aside, and with an open heart, fill her last momentsChris with me forever. No one wants to say goodbye.
of breath with nothing but love and honoring theNo one wants to let go of a best friend, a confidant, a
process of death. I could do nothing else but supportselfless companion. Grieving is part of the emotional
her. Was it hard to separate that I too was dying inprocess. It is part of the cycle
those moments? Yes. Looking into her eyes I knewReleasing what is best for us, and embracing what is
taking on the role of the predator was the only gift Ibest for them, is always a choice. Knowing the
could give her. Walking the fine line of balance in bothanswer to what that choice is, is found in the heart.
of us, giving and receiving was a challenge. In all herWhen the time came for me to say goodbye to Chris,
pain, she had decided she wanted to stay. Yet again,I could have prolonged it, but that would have been for
she was giving so selflessly her love. I had to ask herme. But each dying process is different. There is no
heart and mine if that served her best. The answerrule to follow, or formula to gauge when to let go, or
was "No." The veterinarian came and we saideven how to let go. Each situation brings different
goodbye. Her time in this body was over.choices.
The decision we make with our own animals as toMy mare, Chris, let me know she was grateful I
when their time on earth is through becomes part ofassisted her. That the cycle of love could not be
our responsibility. Chris gave up living and dying as herbroken, it would go on forever. Loving to the depths of
ancestors once did, she could not wander off and die. Iour mutual being, to the places we traveled and grew,
chose to become a predator, and release her fromwill forever be a part of our spirits. I experienced the
her pain, her physical situation would not havepurity of love with Chris. It was worth it all.
improved. Her giving would have come at to high aEach animal in our life brings lessons, challenges, and
cost. Her death would have been excruciating. Forthe purity of their love and spirit. What a gift we give
some that is not the case, and they are able to die onto each other and to ourselves, when we say
their own.goodbye, filled and surrounded by love.
From one perspective, our animals gained longer life